Once.
Twice. Thrice.
If I knew
this was to happen, I wouldn’t even have done it once. Not even once.
The
solemnization, that was all I had to do. For you to be mine. And I, yours. But
something inside made me turn away. You were the best I ever had. You were the
best that I could’ve ever hoped for. But how was I to know? You were all I ever
had. From what was once arranged, turned into something more.
For five
years, I learned all I could about you. For five years, you were patient with
me. You waited. And waited. And waited.
Once; you
waited. I’m going nowhere, you said. I’ll be here waiting.
Twice; you
waited. I’m going nowhere, you said. I’ll be here waiting. The more I can
provide for us later, you said.
Thrice;
you waited. I’m going nowhere, you said. I’ll be here waiting. Forever, I will.
A call. A
call that made hearts tremble. A call that made eyes swell. A call from which I
knew you were no longer mine.
You are no
longer there.
You are no
longer waiting.
Forever,
remains just a promise that two longing hearts made.
You
called. You waited. All I had to do was ask. All I had to do was say yes. But
something pulled me back. Maybe you weren’t meant for me after all. Maybe we
just weren’t meant to be. This was as good a sign as any. You are too good for
me. You deserve better. There was a boulder on my chest, in my heart. A burden
too large for me to bear. I couldn’t. I didn’t want to, but I had to. I had to
let you go.
I smiled
and joked about. Pretended nothing was wrong. Pretended as though nothing has
happened. You still called. You made the situation harder. You made it hard for
me to let go. You gave all that you saved up for us to me. You sacrificed
everything. You gave it all up. Do you think that makes things easier? How
should I let you go now? How am I supposed to let you go?
Tomorrow’s
the day. Tomorrow’s the day I can no longer hope for a change. Tomorrow’s the
day I lose you forever. Tomorrow’s the day that our story ends. Tomorrow’s the
day that we erase our happy ending. Tomorrow’s the day that will forever remind
me of all the times I turned you down. Tomorrow’s the first day of all the days
to come that I can no longer look at you the same way. Tomorrow’s the day that
everything we ever had will forever remain just that, a memory. Tomorrow,
tomorrow. Tomorrow, I will have lost a love.
Two
longing hearts. Two loving hearts. Finally separated. I’m sorry I ever made you
wait. I’m sorry for all the times I turned you down.
You are no
longer there.
You are no
longer waiting.
Forever,
remains just a promise, a word that two longing hearts made.
I bid you
farewell. I wish you love. The parting glass. Goodnight and joy be with you.
